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I feel like I am at a loss for words all the time. I know what I am trying to say but I can never find the right word to express my true thoughts. I always think about things then when I try to explain them, I can't; no one understands what I am trying to say. I don't think I have ever tried or needed to make up a word for what I am saying. I find the best way to explain the way I am feeling is to describe not necessarily the word I am feeling but the who what where why when how of the situation in hopes the person I am talking can more easily understand what I am talking about. I think my biggest problem is I get so excited to share that I forget what I am trying to express to people and I get lost in the detail resulting in my poor story telling abilities.

I can't imagine being in Callie's situation. She is treated like a piece of data instead of a human being with an identity issue. Both Dr. Luce and her father are looking for the easiest way to "change" the way she is to "normal." If I wasn't told what and why Dr. Luce was interrogating me, i to might make up stories for fear he might tell me that there is actually something wrong with the way I was feeling and the things that i was doing. I think preliminary study of callie by Dr. Luce, 435-437, is important to show that he didn't see her as a person with feelings but another notch on his belt and just another oddity to study. I would wonder why I couldn't have a choice in the matter, why can't she tell him what she wants? Why does Dr. Luce have the final decision? He convinces the Stephanides that 'fixing' Callie's condition will make her 'normal' and that is all her parents want but they are also persuaded to think that if they don't fix her terrible things will happen to her. Dr. Luce manipulates both the information Callie gives him and the information that he gives to Milton and Tessie.